I shoulda got a countdown going on my phone or something. Here, lemme -
[He goes for his phone, which is in his pocket, only his lap is full of fish right now. He ends up sliding a hand along Lucifel's tail, instead - makes a small noise of embarrassment, and takes his hand back, hasty.]
[ wrapping his arms around his neck, so he can pull himself up a little - his head is over hurricane's shoulder, resulting in a full embrace as he lifts himself up just the slightest, for hurricane to have the room to pick up his phone
only
maybe this is more embarrassing? it occurs to him this might be more embarrassing. ]
[This is absolutely more embarrassing. Hurricane goes very still for a fraction of a second, then scrambles for his phone.]
[It is more embarrassing yet when he has to reach around Lucifel completely, making the embrace that much closer, so that he can turn his phone on and get the timer app open and running.]
O-okay. We're, uh. We're all set, clock's running.
[ oh that's entirely - well, it's his fault for being that close in the first place, but his breath stalls, stutters like an engine, his heart feels like it's in his ears, he's certain hurricane can hear it from this distance, this proximity, and he's stiff enough that he doesn't pull away from him even when the other's got his phone out - is this a dream? it must be a dream, right, for him to be this close, he feels like something had happened before so -
oh - his scent is so much closer, now. lucifel's own scent is that of lilies, close enough that the sweetness would cling to one's senses but light enough in strength that the sweetness is like a distant memory, something on the tip of one's tongue - close, yet so far away - and while he can't smell himself he wonders abruptly if he smells fishy, and he wonders if it matters, and he's finally easing himself down onto his lap again properly but he hasn't figured out whether he should pick his head up or not; ultimately, his ear ends up pressed to hurricane's collarbone and he mumbles ]
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Alright. Uhm -
. . . Is it . . . is it cheating, to have the light on in here? With your phone - it's really dark, right? It isn't as though it really bothers me but it's - well -
I mean. It, uh - it's probly fine? If you want some light.
[It takes a lot of effort to make the words; his mouth is too dry, and he is very, very aware of the fact that Lucifel did not pull back, and of every single point of contact that entails.]
[He's aware, too, of the smell of lilies - of the gentle sweetness and the surprising intimacy of that. He wonders if it's the shampoo Lucifel uses, and if Lucifel can smell his own, plain and uncomplicated, out of a bottle he didn't fuss with and now is wondering whether he should have, labeled something like ORIGINAL SCENT or FRESH N CLEAN.]
[It takes him a couple of seconds to remember that he should probably put the phone down, and he reaches out to set it on the closet floor, a short distance away.]
[ it's - nice. his scent, the distance - he remembers he can take out his own phone too so after a moment he slowly pulls away, just enough to take his own phone and turn the flashlight on so he can set it on the other side of them for a more even spread of light ]
[ he glances now, to hurricane's face and ears - the light is too far away to appreciate much more than a dim sight and largely silhouette but he still says, ]
[It is probably not quite bright enough to see how red his face is, in the dim lighting, but maybe it's possible to tell how flustered he is from his body language.]
[ that makes him less nervous somehow - to know that he's just as jumpy - but he wonders, too, if that isn't a product of their past. (does hurricane remember? how dangerous it is, to let him be this close?)
slowly, in the dim light, he reaches up with one hand,
to gently stroke at the base of one of his dog ears ]
[He leans into it a little, without meaning to. Out to the side, his tail twitches back and forth. It's fluffy enough that it may or may not be brushing against Lucifel's mermaid tail, where it drapes over the edge of his lap.]
[ with some renewed confidence - he's an expert at pets, ask his cat husband - he brings both hands up to scritch at his ears gently, working his fingers to massage his scalp as though he could massage out the nervousness ]
[The tail picks up its pace a little, flopping back and forth. He's leaning into it more than just a little, now; gradually, some of the nervous tension goes from his shoulders.]
[ as though mirroring him, his own shoulders go slack, tension bleeding out as he shifts to lean closer - just to be more comfortable while he falls into the steady rhythm of petting him ]
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[He ducks his head, cheeks dark - takes a quick breath and steps in, pulling the door closed behind him and taking the light with it.]
[There are a couple of seconds of rustling, in the dark, as he gets himself settled.]
I'm good.
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[ shifting, hands trailing lightly against the floor to find the other ]
- wait, maybe I should be sitting on your lap . . . ?
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[There are a couple of seconds of silence; then another rustling, and Hurricane is suddenly sitting beside him.]
...sure. I. How you wanna...?
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[ awkwardly, ]
I could . . . grab your shoulder . . .
[ like so, feeling for his shoulder with his other hand on the floor ]
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[He reaches out, cautious, to try and support Lucifel with one hand, aiming for his arm - finds his side, instead.]
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- is this fine? I'm not too heavy, am I . . . ?
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N-no, you're - you're good.
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- are you sure? I can get off, really -
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[His heart doesn't beat at all. There are no tells, except the tone of his voice, which is decidedly flustered.]
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Alright . . . Uhm . . .
Should we have started the timer with the door closing?
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Probly. Sorry, I -
I shoulda got a countdown going on my phone or something. Here, lemme -
[He goes for his phone, which is in his pocket, only his lap is full of fish right now. He ends up sliding a hand along Lucifel's tail, instead - makes a small noise of embarrassment, and takes his hand back, hasty.]
Sorry...!
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[ slowly blinking before he realizes the issue ]
You're fine - actually, let me . . .
[ wrapping his arms around his neck, so he can pull himself up a little - his head is over hurricane's shoulder, resulting in a full embrace as he lifts himself up just the slightest, for hurricane to have the room to pick up his phone
only
maybe this is more embarrassing? it occurs to him this might be more embarrassing. ]
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[It is more embarrassing yet when he has to reach around Lucifel completely, making the embrace that much closer, so that he can turn his phone on and get the timer app open and running.]
O-okay. We're, uh. We're all set, clock's running.
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oh - his scent is so much closer, now. lucifel's own scent is that of lilies, close enough that the sweetness would cling to one's senses but light enough in strength that the sweetness is like a distant memory, something on the tip of one's tongue - close, yet so far away - and while he can't smell himself he wonders abruptly if he smells fishy, and he wonders if it matters, and he's finally easing himself down onto his lap again properly but he hasn't figured out whether he should pick his head up or not; ultimately, his ear ends up pressed to hurricane's collarbone and he mumbles ]
A -
Alright. Uhm -
. . . Is it . . . is it cheating, to have the light on in here? With your phone - it's really dark, right? It isn't as though it really bothers me but it's - well -
A little light would be fine, right . . . ?
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[It takes a lot of effort to make the words; his mouth is too dry, and he is very, very aware of the fact that Lucifel did not pull back, and of every single point of contact that entails.]
[He's aware, too, of the smell of lilies - of the gentle sweetness and the surprising intimacy of that. He wonders if it's the shampoo Lucifel uses, and if Lucifel can smell his own, plain and uncomplicated, out of a bottle he didn't fuss with and now is wondering whether he should have, labeled something like ORIGINAL SCENT or FRESH N CLEAN.]
[It takes him a couple of seconds to remember that he should probably put the phone down, and he reaches out to set it on the closet floor, a short distance away.]
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[The hand that had been holding his phone hovers for a few seconds, a little helpless, before it settles around Lucifel in a loose embrace.]
That, uh. That better?
With. With the light, I mean.
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Yes - I think so.
[ and then, pauses ]
Uhm . . . Can I do something?
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[It is probably not quite bright enough to see how red his face is, in the dim lighting, but maybe it's possible to tell how flustered he is from his body language.]
Y-yeah, go for it.
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slowly, in the dim light, he reaches up with one hand,
to gently stroke at the base of one of his dog ears ]
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[That's... very nice, actually.]
[He leans into it a little, without meaning to. Out to the side, his tail twitches back and forth. It's fluffy enough that it may or may not be brushing against Lucifel's mermaid tail, where it drapes over the edge of his lap.]
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