It's fine. It's just that it's not bad that you're here.
There are definitely people I'd want to see, and people I'd be unhappy to see, but probably there are people I wouldn't think of who I'd still be happy to see...?
Mm... A few of his unitmates had a pretty hard time, yeah. We also talked about my memory, though, which was... well, not good. But it wasn't bad, and it helped to figure out some stuff.
...It's complicated. I'd thought, based on my last memory... that I killed someone I cared about. The first person I ever cared about, actually. And that I was going to get a bunch of other people killed, too, because I'd given up.
It's all still pretty confusing, but it sounds like that didn't happen, at least.
Well, we were still trapped in a killing game. And a lot of people were still dead. Possibly all of humanity was dead but the five or six of us who were left in the game? I wasn't sure.
I'd already decided it didn't matter what happened, before, because there's no way it was good. There's some chance now that it wasn't quite as bad as I thought.
I'm not sure how to feel about all of it, really. I didn't know the "last remnants of humanity" part until this memory, but it sounds like maybe it's not true, anyway...?
But, it's at least changed one thing I was unhappy about. So there's that much.
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[ hmmm ]
... Were you waiting for me?
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[hmmmm]
No, that's still not quite right. It's not like it could be just anyone...
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[ settling down on the floor near the bed - ostensibly she's sitting down, tentacles curling around her relaxed ]
Then - even though you're not waiting for anyone in particular, there are particular people that you want to see, right?
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There are definitely people I'd want to see, and people I'd be unhappy to see, but probably there are people I wouldn't think of who I'd still be happy to see...?
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What about Intensity? What if he showed up?
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Well, obviously he would be the best...
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Did you get to ask him...?
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Was that okay...? It seemed like some people had a hard time there...
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...It's complicated. I'd thought, based on my last memory... that I killed someone I cared about. The first person I ever cared about, actually. And that I was going to get a bunch of other people killed, too, because I'd given up.
It's all still pretty confusing, but it sounds like that didn't happen, at least.
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... Is there a bad part...?
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1/2
2/4 actually
Oh. Um -
3/4
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[ awful? ]
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I'd already decided it didn't matter what happened, before, because there's no way it was good. There's some chance now that it wasn't quite as bad as I thought.
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... Well... If you learned something recently that made you feel more hopeful, then that's good, right...?
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I'm not sure how to feel about all of it, really. I didn't know the "last remnants of humanity" part until this memory, but it sounds like maybe it's not true, anyway...?
But, it's at least changed one thing I was unhappy about. So there's that much.
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[ well ]
- Um, either way, if you found something that's made you feel better, then I think that's good.
Is there something else on your mind?