dreampost: even more after dark edition (IV)

[wotanon]

[ sexy dreams for thirsty idol bastards

shit's going to be sexy in here.

please list what you're open or not open to somewhere in your toplevel pls and thank ]

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[gigadevilbreaker]

He doesn't...

[Mmn. Hm. No, that was not really true. Hm! HM.

There's a lump in Nero's throat that he tries to swallow.]

I know what he's like. He hurts himself.

[selfpreservationist]

I don't want... anyone hurting you.

[gigadevilbreaker]

It's not like that!

[selfpreservationist]

Then what's it like?

[gigadevilbreaker]

He...

[Nero's gaze falls, and he rolls his face into the sheets to try and hide the deep flush in his face]

He wants to protect me, too. Not nice, but kind. And he's thoughtful - even though he can't let himself be seen loving anyone... even though he can't let himself feel loved.

[selfpreservationist]

Do you love him?

[gigadevilbreaker]

[He's quiet for a while]

As much as he'll let me.

[selfpreservationist]

[the bindings tighten... and then slowly, slowly relax]

He doesn't deserve you.

[gigadevilbreaker]

He thinks that too.

[selfpreservationist]

I... don't deserve... you...

[the bindings relax more and more, and start to creep up over raven, coiling around him the same way they were wrapped around nero]

[gigadevilbreaker]

What's it matter what you deserve? I care about you... isn't that enough of a reason?

[selfpreservationist]

Do you love me?

[gigadevilbreaker]

...Do you want me to?

[selfpreservationist]

Yes. From your heart... I want you to love me the way I love you.

[gigadevilbreaker]

[With the bindings so relaxed, Nero's able to pull a hand free to cup Raven's face]

Raven...

[selfpreservationist]

[looking up at him with wide eyes, almost watering, his expression both hopeful and afraid as he leans into nero's hand]

Nero...

[gigadevilbreaker]

[He's shy, chewing on his bottom lip. Awkwardly mumbles,]

If you want me t'try... I can try.

[selfpreservationist]

... you don't hate me for... for feeling this way?

[gigadevilbreaker]

[Actually a little taken aback by the question]

Why would I hate you?

[selfpreservationist]

Because I've been lying to you... about how I truly feel.

[gigadevilbreaker]

[Nero's expressions softens with gentle incredulity, and he idly strokes his hair,]

...You're such a moron.

[selfpreservationist]

[petting is nice...]

What?

[gigadevilbreaker]

I said you're dumb, dumbass.

[selfpreservationist]

I'm not dumb. Why am I dumb? I'm not.

[gigadevilbreaker]

[The hand that caresses also pincheth thy cheek]

You're dumb as a rock. Unless you've been pretending to care about me to gaslight my girlfriends into leaving me for you, I'm not gonna HATE you for "lying about your feelings."

God.