This Time Even Dreamier (VIII)

[wotanon]

[traumatic memories sometimes make you thirsty ok

List what you are open/not open to in your top levels, please and thank!]

[[SFW post here]]

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[failedsafe]

...I don't know about that. Maybe for some people, but not for all. Not for me. So much has been stolen from me and there might be so much more I don't know, can't know until I get it back.

[weenwoon]

[He shakes his head, stubbornly.]

What else you might turn out to be does not erase what you are right now. You are kind and loving; you have room in your heart for the entire world. Please, Lily. Make some for yourself, too.

[failedsafe]

It might not erase it, but I am still...not my whole self. [A whole person]

I love myself just fine, Vivi, don't worry.

[weenwoon]

[Frowns!!]

Do you?

[failedsafe]

[WHATS WITH THAT FROWN!!!!]

Yeah. What's not to love?

[weenwoon]

[Just. Holding her face, gently.]

...But you asked me not to love you.

[failedsafe]

IT's the best thing I can do for you.

[weenwoon]

What's not to love about you, Lily?

[failedsafe]

[a lo]

Nothing, silly, I already said that.

[weenwoon]

[Lily!!!!]

Then there is no reason for me to stop loving you.

[failedsafe]

Only if I hurt you badly.

[why are you a marshmallow]

[weenwoon]

[He just be soft.]

But... you could just apologize if that happened. And I would forgive you.

[failedsafe]

I would apologise, and if you...wanted to forgive me that's your choice, but that just means I could hurt you again and again and again.

[Even the possibility y doesn't sit well with her after all that's happened. She should be perfect, somehow.]

[weenwoon]

[He looks to the side briefly.]

...But that is true of me, too. I could hurt you too, wittingly or not.

[failedsafe]

[that didn't even occur to her. perhaps it should have.]

That isn't something that comes easily to you.

[weenwoon]

...Nevertheless. I'm... just a person too, Lily. I can make mistakes. I can hurt you without knowing it.

[He takes both her hands in his, holding them to his chest, looking down.]

...Like he did me.