This Time Even Dreamier (VIII)

[wotanon]

[traumatic memories sometimes make you thirsty ok

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[failedsafe]

There are as many reasons people might hurt someone else as there are stars in the sky at any given point.

[She leans into his touch, though, thirsting for any of his affection.]

[weenwoon]

[By the heavens, he wants to kiss her so much. But first...]

...I think that people only hurt each other when they, too, are hurting. Because... if you're happy, if you're safe, if you are fulfilled... there is no need for pain. There is no room in your heart for it, only for love. So... if ever you did hurt me--I would know that it is because you, too, have been hurt. And I would reach out to you. It is not your fault if you are hurt, Lily...

[failedsafe]

...Some people hurt just because they can, Vivi. They could have the world and they'd still want to see it burn.

[weenwoon]

...Do you truly think yourself someone like that?

[failedsafe]

...I don't know the whole of who I am. Who can say?

[weenwoon]

Lily.

[He takes one of her hands, placing it gently over his own heart.]

Without our memories, are we not the purest essences of ourselves?

[failedsafe]

...I don't know about that. Maybe for some people, but not for all. Not for me. So much has been stolen from me and there might be so much more I don't know, can't know until I get it back.

[weenwoon]

[He shakes his head, stubbornly.]

What else you might turn out to be does not erase what you are right now. You are kind and loving; you have room in your heart for the entire world. Please, Lily. Make some for yourself, too.

[failedsafe]

It might not erase it, but I am still...not my whole self. [A whole person]

I love myself just fine, Vivi, don't worry.

[weenwoon]

[Frowns!!]

Do you?

[failedsafe]

[WHATS WITH THAT FROWN!!!!]

Yeah. What's not to love?

[weenwoon]

[Just. Holding her face, gently.]

...But you asked me not to love you.

[failedsafe]

IT's the best thing I can do for you.

[weenwoon]

What's not to love about you, Lily?

[failedsafe]

[a lo]

Nothing, silly, I already said that.

[weenwoon]

[Lily!!!!]

Then there is no reason for me to stop loving you.

[failedsafe]

Only if I hurt you badly.

[why are you a marshmallow]

[weenwoon]

[He just be soft.]

But... you could just apologize if that happened. And I would forgive you.

[failedsafe]

I would apologise, and if you...wanted to forgive me that's your choice, but that just means I could hurt you again and again and again.

[Even the possibility y doesn't sit well with her after all that's happened. She should be perfect, somehow.]

[weenwoon]

[He looks to the side briefly.]

...But that is true of me, too. I could hurt you too, wittingly or not.

[failedsafe]

[that didn't even occur to her. perhaps it should have.]

That isn't something that comes easily to you.

[weenwoon]

...Nevertheless. I'm... just a person too, Lily. I can make mistakes. I can hurt you without knowing it.

[He takes both her hands in his, holding them to his chest, looking down.]

...Like he did me.