wotanon | This Time Even Dreamier (VIII)

[He tenses when he makes contact at first, his breath picking up - this is still familiar in a not very good way, after all. Levity closes his eyes, trying to puzzle out his own reaction. There's the fear that he's now nearly used to, and traces of humiliation--

Levity looks nervous, shifting under the touch but not pulling away from it.]

...You wouldn't mock me, yes? If I do like it.

Of course not. I can hardly speak, considering.

[ strange reactions to pain and all! he decreases the pressure some but does gently massage the area, pressing in and then letting up with his fingertips, getting Levity used to it -- well, as much as he's able to in this context. ]

[Wow, isnt it weird how much better things go when you're like, actually communicating and you're not being a cagey motherfucker???

That does seem to relax him quite a bit and Levity leans into the touch more. It seems that rather than pure physical sensation what he likes most is the emotional aspect of it, the idea of being hurt with care.]

...I'm glad.

[He strokes Ardyn's throat, letting himself feel the warmth and his pulse under his fingers.]

He did. But I think he just used everything you know about me to hurt me.

[He sounds sad moreso than anything else at that, though.]

[ weird!! how that works!! there's an exhale, his adam's apple bobbing under his fingers as he swallows. ]

Of course. But that's all it was -- an attempt to hurt you. I do not seriously think those things of you.

[Thank fuck for dream therapy! The reassurances are helping a lot and Levity will certainly feel better about everything the next morning. If still weird, because this sure is a Strange Dream.

There's a smile tugging at his lips - another glimmer of Levity that Absinthe had gotten to know in the first place.]

I'm glad.

[He watches that bob of his throat, feeling comfortable enough to let himself indulge in that same curiousity that closet Absinthe was so keen on mocking. But first...

Levity leans down, sliding one hand up to cup Ardyn's cheek, and experimentally presses a kiss to his lips - checking if he himself is fine with this. It seems to work so far.]

[ there's a low hum, soft approval as he watches him lean in -- and he tips his head up some to kiss him back but he's not rushing this along. he imagines Levity is doing this for himself as a test, so he doesn't want to spook him by pushing things further than he's comfortable with.

he will keep himself busy, though, stroking the side of Levity's face and then his long hair. ]

[Being in control seems to help quite a bit. The kiss is slow, exploratory at first, but soon enough Levity lets himself deepen it, be a little bolder with it as he tangles his hand in Ardyn's hair as though to keep him there.

Just a little bolder.

And some more.

And some more.

Some more...

Intermittently he pulls away slightly to give them both a little air before kissing Ardyn again, and there's a change in him every time - not just affection, but budding desire now, too. He nips and sucks at Ardyn's lips with impatient little noises, fingers tightening their hold on the other man's scalp before he goes for a full, deep kiss. Levity's panting when he finally pulls away, face flushed but a rather satisfied look in his eyes.]

...I think I did miss you.

[ his response is warm and responsive - - though when he kisses back he only meets, not surpasses, Levity's intensity; it definitely shows his eagerness, his readiness to return the affection that's being allowed him. at the last kiss there's a hum, a pleased sound in the back of his throat as he rests his fingers on the back of Levity's throat, thumb rubbing against his skin. ]

You are realizing this now...?

[ did you miss kisses Levity!! ]

[YEAH HE DID. IT'S BEEN LIKE AN IC WEEK WITHOUT ANY PHYSICAL CONTACT OTHER THAN HOLDING HANDS AND HAIRPETTING, HE'S SO STARVED.

Levity straightens up a little with a half-embarrassed, half-amused huff.]

...Letting myself realize may be more accurate. It's been a--strange time.

[ ok fair! ]

May I say that I am flattered to hear it regardless? Or, perhaps -- relieved.

[He smiles!]

As am I. But... you should elaborate.

[Now YOU tell him you like him.]

Because I am fond of you, of course, and I enjoy spending time with you. I would not have wished to part ways forever.

[Despite himself, his face lights up - he really just basks in affection and attention.]

It might not have been forever, given how close I am to others on your unit... but quite some time, yes.

[He bends down again with a fondly exasperated huff to press another kiss to his lips - soft, tender.]

I have terrible taste in men, by all accounts.

[ cute .. his head tilts up to return the favor. ]

Emet-Selch and Lahabrea may disagree.

[He chuckles, tracing his fingers down Ardyn's face and then to his neck again.]

I think it is safe to say they are somewhat biased.

[Straightening properly, he wraps his hands around Ardyn's throat again - simply resting against the skin without any pressure yet.]

Do you still want to do this? I may need some guidance.

[ there's a slight, pleased sigh and he tips his head back again, adam's apple bobbing as he swallows. ]

I will guide as best as I am able.

[Levity's face flushes a little at those small signs of pleasure. This is rather different - after all, Levity himself is much more used to being on the receiving end of such things, - but it is certainly pleasant and interesting.

It feels like it has been quite a while since he last felt like this. Gently, he strokes the side of Ardyn's neck with a thumb, feeling his pulse. There's something... exhilarating about this.]

Mm... Lesson one, then. Is my hold correct?

[bdsm class with the stinkman lets go]

Hmm. Well, I cannot say that I am an expert in these matters, but ...

[ Absinthe's hands shift and he moves to push Levity's thumbs further inwards, so they're pointing to the underside of Absinthe's jaw while Levity's fingers circle the sides of his neck. ]

There. So you can get the proper leverage when you lean in.

Are you not? I am genuinely surprised.

[Normally it's the kind of thing that Levity would say teasingly, but he's actually relaxed and curious enough that the remark is genuine.]

Ready, then?

[Though he's the one in charge, Levity takes a deep breath first before slowly pressing down, watching Absinthe's face for any sign of negative - or positive - reaction. Since he's being careful, so far it's enough to restrict his breathing but not cut it off yet.]

I typically use... A far less hands on approach.

[ Absinthe remarks before Levity starts to squeeze - - and when he does he inhales on reflex, eyes half lidded. honestly at this point the pleasure is mostly psychological, the emotional thrill of being under Levity's grasp, the switch over from when they first had sex. ]

Not a bad start.

[There's a curious hum from Levity - what does a "less hands on approach" even mean here? But that's likely a question better saved for later. He smiles at the praise and presses down harder, more confidently - this time enough to cut off Absinthe's breathing.]

[ there's a hitch before it cuts off entirely, a shift under him -- an instinct that he's suppressing to try to intake again and then an approving him, encouraging, moving his grip from Levity's hands to his wrists to pet the outside of them ]

[Levity's own breathing deepens slowly as he watches Absinthe, feeling the warmth and the slight movements of his throat under his fingers. The petting gets another happy smile from him - it's a good reassurance that they're both enjoying this, that it's done willingly.

But, ah. This is exciting.

Levity hums softly before leaning down to press his lips against Absinthe's, his heart beating faster. It's a little strange to realize, but... a lot of what Levity wants to do here is a gentler reenaction of what was done to him. Maybe as a way to establish in his mind that such things can be done with affection...

...but he can't deny it's also nice to have Absinthe at his mercy, to be in control. Experimentally, Levity tightens his hold on Absinthe's throat as he kisses him, wondering about what kind of a reaction he'll get out of the other man.]

[ there's another noise -- this time instead of just approving it's almost more ... hungry, a twitch of his hips under Levity's as if he's trying to get friction against him. now, moreso than before the physical component of this is taking effect as he starts to lose his breath, the light-headedness and the thrill that comes with that and a breathless, haggard moan escaping from his lips and against Levity's own. ]

[Levity's own reaction is a surprise to himself: he's avoided thinking about sex lately for obvious reasons, so the familiar jolt of warmth and excitement in his gut is more than unexpected... but once again not unpleasant. Levity doesn't tighten his hold, judging it to be sufficient, but his fingers certainly twitch at hearing that moan, at knowing he's having an effect.

It's intoxicating, in its own way.

Heart beating faster, Levity lets himself deepen the kiss - almost teasingly slow, thorough, as though aiming to test if Absinthe would get impatient or desperate if this goes on long enough.]

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