wotanon | This Time Even Dreamier (VIII)

[can't you though!!! it's levity

But he smiles, a little flustered but happy, and... transfers his attention to the matter at hand, as it were.]

...It might be easier if you lie down this time.

-- oh, yes, it would!

[ neatly, then, he'll try to grab Levity by his hips and help guide him so their positions can be reversed - - Levity on top of him, straddling him. ]

[He makes a noise of surprise, but--this is nice, actually? There's a change in the atmosphere of the dream - and Levity is still unaware it's not just a dream, but he's certainly a lot happier with it now. He chuckles as he makes himself more comfortable, just taking in the sight of Absinthe--Ardyn under him. This is new and different, but exciting in the same measure.]

...I never thought I would be doing something like this.

[ he gets comfortable himself , a low chuckle escaping, the vibrations noticeable against Levity's hands as he shifts under him. ]

No - - you do not seem the sort to anticipate such a thing. I am honored to give you your first experience in this position!

[His face flushes--just because it's true doesn't mean he should say it!!! But, well, this is a lot more like regular Levity. Before, you know, everything happened.]

I did think that if it were to happen, our positions would be reversed...

[A pause.]

It... didn't all feel bad.

[His face is really red. It's kind of very embarrassing and more than a little weird to tell someone that you did have horny thoughts about them prompted by their most fucked up version of themselves doing horrible shit at you.]

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[ there's definitely surprise at that -- both at the message and the fact that Levity's saying that to him, in general. he supposes it's because he's in a dream that he's able to tell him at all.

he doesn't try to look too shocked; instead reaching to pet his hands again. ]

Then what parts felt good?

[yeah he's going to die irl when he realizes it wasn't Just a dream

Levity lets his hold on Ardyn's throat tighten briefly by way of explanation.]

...when he did this. It was... very scary, but...

[He trails off, averting his eyes. He still looks very flustered--and that's understandable, that was a very weird way of discovering a kink. Weird by his standards, anyway, it's normal for imeeji itself.]

...it felt like being rewarded, when he let me breathe again. And I couldn't help thinking that in other circumstances... I would have liked it.

[He sighs quietly, looking at Ardyn again... and then lets go of his throat with one hand to undo his own jacket and push up his shirt. Check out his cool scar haha isn't it fun.]

...From Somnus. But when that part of you would press on it, it felt good. But I panicked when he did that, and that's why he got angry with me...

[ he frowns -- not as much at the words but at the scar, yet another piece of evidence of how he was heart in his heart! but he can't help but lift his hand up, like he's about to touch him but pausing mid-reach. ]

May I ... ?

[He watches that hand with a mixture of apprehension and--anticipation is a word for it, maybe.]

You can.

[ he touches the scar then, gentle, running his fingertips up against it --

before he applies pressure, testing if Levity will recoil to it. ]

[He tenses when he makes contact at first, his breath picking up - this is still familiar in a not very good way, after all. Levity closes his eyes, trying to puzzle out his own reaction. There's the fear that he's now nearly used to, and traces of humiliation--

Levity looks nervous, shifting under the touch but not pulling away from it.]

...You wouldn't mock me, yes? If I do like it.

Of course not. I can hardly speak, considering.

[ strange reactions to pain and all! he decreases the pressure some but does gently massage the area, pressing in and then letting up with his fingertips, getting Levity used to it -- well, as much as he's able to in this context. ]

[Wow, isnt it weird how much better things go when you're like, actually communicating and you're not being a cagey motherfucker???

That does seem to relax him quite a bit and Levity leans into the touch more. It seems that rather than pure physical sensation what he likes most is the emotional aspect of it, the idea of being hurt with care.]

...I'm glad.

[He strokes Ardyn's throat, letting himself feel the warmth and his pulse under his fingers.]

He did. But I think he just used everything you know about me to hurt me.

[He sounds sad moreso than anything else at that, though.]

[ weird!! how that works!! there's an exhale, his adam's apple bobbing under his fingers as he swallows. ]

Of course. But that's all it was -- an attempt to hurt you. I do not seriously think those things of you.

[Thank fuck for dream therapy! The reassurances are helping a lot and Levity will certainly feel better about everything the next morning. If still weird, because this sure is a Strange Dream.

There's a smile tugging at his lips - another glimmer of Levity that Absinthe had gotten to know in the first place.]

I'm glad.

[He watches that bob of his throat, feeling comfortable enough to let himself indulge in that same curiousity that closet Absinthe was so keen on mocking. But first...

Levity leans down, sliding one hand up to cup Ardyn's cheek, and experimentally presses a kiss to his lips - checking if he himself is fine with this. It seems to work so far.]

[ there's a low hum, soft approval as he watches him lean in -- and he tips his head up some to kiss him back but he's not rushing this along. he imagines Levity is doing this for himself as a test, so he doesn't want to spook him by pushing things further than he's comfortable with.

he will keep himself busy, though, stroking the side of Levity's face and then his long hair. ]

[Being in control seems to help quite a bit. The kiss is slow, exploratory at first, but soon enough Levity lets himself deepen it, be a little bolder with it as he tangles his hand in Ardyn's hair as though to keep him there.

Just a little bolder.

And some more.

And some more.

Some more...

Intermittently he pulls away slightly to give them both a little air before kissing Ardyn again, and there's a change in him every time - not just affection, but budding desire now, too. He nips and sucks at Ardyn's lips with impatient little noises, fingers tightening their hold on the other man's scalp before he goes for a full, deep kiss. Levity's panting when he finally pulls away, face flushed but a rather satisfied look in his eyes.]

...I think I did miss you.

[ his response is warm and responsive - - though when he kisses back he only meets, not surpasses, Levity's intensity; it definitely shows his eagerness, his readiness to return the affection that's being allowed him. at the last kiss there's a hum, a pleased sound in the back of his throat as he rests his fingers on the back of Levity's throat, thumb rubbing against his skin. ]

You are realizing this now...?

[ did you miss kisses Levity!! ]

[YEAH HE DID. IT'S BEEN LIKE AN IC WEEK WITHOUT ANY PHYSICAL CONTACT OTHER THAN HOLDING HANDS AND HAIRPETTING, HE'S SO STARVED.

Levity straightens up a little with a half-embarrassed, half-amused huff.]

...Letting myself realize may be more accurate. It's been a--strange time.

[ ok fair! ]

May I say that I am flattered to hear it regardless? Or, perhaps -- relieved.

[He smiles!]

As am I. But... you should elaborate.

[Now YOU tell him you like him.]

Because I am fond of you, of course, and I enjoy spending time with you. I would not have wished to part ways forever.

[Despite himself, his face lights up - he really just basks in affection and attention.]

It might not have been forever, given how close I am to others on your unit... but quite some time, yes.

[He bends down again with a fondly exasperated huff to press another kiss to his lips - soft, tender.]

I have terrible taste in men, by all accounts.

[ cute .. his head tilts up to return the favor. ]

Emet-Selch and Lahabrea may disagree.

[He chuckles, tracing his fingers down Ardyn's face and then to his neck again.]

I think it is safe to say they are somewhat biased.

[Straightening properly, he wraps his hands around Ardyn's throat again - simply resting against the skin without any pressure yet.]

Do you still want to do this? I may need some guidance.

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