This Time Even Dreamier (VIII)

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[traumatic memories sometimes make you thirsty ok

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[weenwoon]

[is this mercy kill offer pt 2

Levity still startles at the touch, but less so than before - out of surprise than fear this time. He looks up at Ardyn, tears in the corners of his eyes.]

Of... Of course. Anything...

[innerdaemons]

[ he gently guides Levity's hands away from himself, instead towards Ardyn's own neck -- where he tries to put them at either side of it, where if Levity squeezed he'd be holding his throat in turn. ]

You do not need to fear me.

[weenwoon]

[SIR???? This is a development Levity clearly didn't expect, and there's a different kind of worry on his face, even as he does let Ardyn guide his hands to his neck.]

Ardyn, I don't want to hurt you!

[His voice is fearful again, though not for himself this time... and yet, there is something about this reversal of power dynamics that--does make him feel better, in a way. The biggest challenge of recovery, after all, was reestablishing control - of his body, of his mind, of his life.]

[innerdaemons]

I am allowing it. I am asking it of you - - so you do not have to live with his specter over you for the remainder of your days here.

[ still - - Ardyn doesn't make him squeeze down. his hands remain there but it's more for support, to keep that contact up but to not force him into anything. if he's to do this it will be his choice. ]

[weenwoon]

[His eyes search Ardyn's face, trying to figure out what--what it is he wants, needs here.

...Eventually, he breathes out shakily, closes his eyes. His hands twitch around Ardyn's neck, but--]

...I can't. I can't hurt you, Ardyn... I simply... I simply wanted you to care for me. I did not want you to hate me. To be angry with me.

[innerdaemons]

[ he frowns - - and he does squeeze a bit with his fingers but it's not enough to force the grip. ]

I do not hate you. I want you to have this, Levity.

[weenwoon]

[LISTEN CAN YOU JUST MAKE IT CLEAR THIS IS HORNY KIND OF CHOKING, NOT MURDER CHOKING. HE WOULD BE SO MUCH MORE COMFORTABLE WITH THAT.]

...Why?

[innerdaemons]

[ look he doesn't know if Levity knows the difference?? ]

You will not hurt me. In fact - - in the right circumstances it can be rather enjoyable.

And you still have control.

[weenwoon]

[What if you told him though!!!

But it seems that Levity at least has the inkling of an idea that, sometimes, choking can be horny. There's pink in his cheeks as he studies Ardyn's face, and. Oh. Well.

He squeezes down ever so slightly.]

...You never did answer me. When I asked if it's... if this... if being hurt feels good for you, too...

[innerdaemons]

[ Absinthe's breath intakes some - - and there's a chuckle, but it's not mocking, more fond as he tips his head to bare more of his neck. ]

It does. So you never need to hold back for my sake.

[weenwoon]

[...Oh. Ohhhhhhhhh oh he gets it now.

Levity certainly looks flustered by that, but also... curious? Since Absinthe seems to be participating willingly, Levity increases the pressure some more - but carefully, despite the reassurances. His face flushes more as he contemplates the... implications.]

...N-No, I don't want to go so far as to actually hurt you. But... If you like this...

[Maybe he can have little a breathplay. As a treat.]

[innerdaemons]

[ a little breathplay! as a treat!

Absinthe smiles and inhales slow, deep, as the pressure increases. it's still not really restricting his breathing but Levity can feel the way his pulse picks up under his hands. ]

I do. And I trust you with it, more than most.

[weenwoon]

[Levity smiles--he can't help but be flattered, both at the fact that he can do something Ardyn likes but mostly the fact that he's trusted. That... goes a long way to making him feel better, really.]

...Thank you.

[Something else stirs at the back of his mind, a half-formed memory.]

I'm sorry if I made you feel like I did not trust you, Ardyn.

[innerdaemons]

[ he shakes his head, stroking the back of Levity's hand. ]

I understand entirely why you were uncertain with me, my friend. I am relieved you trust me enough to be comfortable doing this much.

[weenwoon]

[He flushes!!! It's nice to have Absinthe be genuinely charming again. Too bad this wouldn't really work in real life because there Levity's subconscious still freaks out at the sight of him.]

...To be honest... I was certain. But others kept telling me it would be naive or stupid, to trust so blindly.

[...]

And I think you would have been unhappy with that, too.

[innerdaemons]

[ he lets go of his hand, reaching up to touch the side of Levity's face but not moving the grip from his neck either. ]

It isn't terribly wise to trust blindly. One must be worthy of it.

[weenwoon]

[It's ok garbageman he'll keep his hands on your neck! It's just that you're talking about things and actively choking you isn't conducive to that.

He tilts his head into the touch a little.]

...I thought that you are.

[innerdaemons]

[ can't believe talking about feelings interrupted sexy choking ]

And I can only hope to prove that that faith in me is not misplaced.

[weenwoon]

[can't you though!!! it's levity

But he smiles, a little flustered but happy, and... transfers his attention to the matter at hand, as it were.]

...It might be easier if you lie down this time.

[innerdaemons]

-- oh, yes, it would!

[ neatly, then, he'll try to grab Levity by his hips and help guide him so their positions can be reversed - - Levity on top of him, straddling him. ]

[weenwoon]

[He makes a noise of surprise, but--this is nice, actually? There's a change in the atmosphere of the dream - and Levity is still unaware it's not just a dream, but he's certainly a lot happier with it now. He chuckles as he makes himself more comfortable, just taking in the sight of Absinthe--Ardyn under him. This is new and different, but exciting in the same measure.]

...I never thought I would be doing something like this.

[innerdaemons]

[ he gets comfortable himself , a low chuckle escaping, the vibrations noticeable against Levity's hands as he shifts under him. ]

No - - you do not seem the sort to anticipate such a thing. I am honored to give you your first experience in this position!

[weenwoon]

[His face flushes--just because it's true doesn't mean he should say it!!! But, well, this is a lot more like regular Levity. Before, you know, everything happened.]

I did think that if it were to happen, our positions would be reversed...

[A pause.]

It... didn't all feel bad.

[His face is really red. It's kind of very embarrassing and more than a little weird to tell someone that you did have horny thoughts about them prompted by their most fucked up version of themselves doing horrible shit at you.]

[innerdaemons]

[ there's definitely surprise at that -- both at the message and the fact that Levity's saying that to him, in general. he supposes it's because he's in a dream that he's able to tell him at all.

he doesn't try to look too shocked; instead reaching to pet his hands again. ]

Then what parts felt good?

[weenwoon]

[yeah he's going to die irl when he realizes it wasn't Just a dream

Levity lets his hold on Ardyn's throat tighten briefly by way of explanation.]

...when he did this. It was... very scary, but...

[He trails off, averting his eyes. He still looks very flustered--and that's understandable, that was a very weird way of discovering a kink. Weird by his standards, anyway, it's normal for imeeji itself.]

...it felt like being rewarded, when he let me breathe again. And I couldn't help thinking that in other circumstances... I would have liked it.

[He sighs quietly, looking at Ardyn again... and then lets go of his throat with one hand to undo his own jacket and push up his shirt. Check out his cool scar haha isn't it fun.]

...From Somnus. But when that part of you would press on it, it felt good. But I panicked when he did that, and that's why he got angry with me...