dreampost: even more after dark edition

[wotanon]

[ shit's going to be sexy in here.

please list what you're open or not open to somewhere in your toplevel pls and thank ]

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[sancrimony]

. . .


I'm very sorry . . .

All I can think is that it would be good to find someone who you do want to do it with, who wants to do it a lot, too . . .

[rollplayinghouse]

That would be good, yes.

[sancrimony]

Wait. Then, what sort of advice do you need from me? How to catch that sort of person? Or perhaps a list of those sorts of people?

[ . . . ]

I'm very sorry to say in advance that I'm somewhat troublesome to share with, so I must respectfully say that my Avenger is off the table.

[rollplayinghouse]

Wh—No! I mean... maybe, but it's not like you know who I want to have sex with... I just meant that it would be nice if the problem could be solved like that.

Since I don't really know anyone like that, it would be easier if I could just stop wanting it...

[sancrimony]

[ oh

a look of deep sympathy ]

Ahhh . . . It's really inconvenient, isn't it? I totally understand . . . I don't have the same sort of situation as you, since my partners are always receptive, but even so, being plagued by that sort of desire unceasingly is difficult to bear with . . .

[ that makes it sound like he's horny like 24/7 but ]

Have you considered distractions? Meditation, perhaps?

[rollplayinghouse]

Well, I'm good at focusing on other things, so it's not like I'm thinking about it all the time or anything. I guess, it's more like I am with other things too, where I go from zero to a hundred...

[sancrimony]

. . . Well. . .

Ah! Maybe you could go on dates with other people to see if you have anyone you're interested in growing a bond with? If you're upfront about it - that is, that you want to ultimately have a relationship where you can fulfill this need, then you can weed out the people who won't be interested anyway.

[rollplayinghouse]

...Maybe. I guess that must be what people do normally... It just seems weird to try to grow a bond with someone specifically to be like "let's see if we can get close enough that I want to sleep with you."

[sancrimony]

People will marry for less than that. Besides, it isn't as though sleeping with the person is as far as your relationship with them will go, right?

"We have mutual interest in this activity, let's see if we're compatible enough to do this together." But if you're compatible enough to do that, naturally you'll have other things to enjoy with them, so isn't it fine?

[rollplayinghouse]

[Maki is a person whose canon love hotel fantasy is "we're childhood friends who've known each other for ten years let's start a family but also please fuck me" so marrying for less than that is a bit hard to conceptualize]

But at that point, isn't it less awkward to just do the other activities with people and get to know them that way without making it about whether we can have sex? If we enjoy it and get close, even if they don't want to do it, we could still be friends.

[sancrimony]

[ tbh it's hard for him too on a personal level but he is also fairly Aware of Politics (TM) ]

You can't do both? There's no reason not to.

[rollplayinghouse]

You don't think it would make getting to know someone for real harder if you started doing it specifically for sex reasons and you're both wondering the whole time if or when it will be good enough?

[sancrimony]

It isn't as though you're rejecting them though, right? Like -

If a jigsaw piece doesn't fit into the puzzle, does that make it any more difficult to put the other pieces in? It's just one aspect that you aren't compatible with a person over, but in the first place, it takes more than that for it to cut off a relationship's growth. Like I said, sex doesn't have to be the end-all - it can be the start, the excuse for the beginning of the relationship.

. . . Well, I suppose in the first place, you're speaking to a person who started a relationship with someone, not knowing if the other would ever love him or not. Perhaps my perspective is skewed.

[rollplayinghouse]

...People's feelings aren't a jigsaw puzzle. If you go into a relationship with expectations that don't end up getting fulfilled, it gets things all twisted up.

[sancrimony]

. . . It isn't as though I disagree, but expectations can change too, right? You can say, "it isn't working out that way for me, but I value your friendship and I still want to get to know you."

. . . Maybe I don't understand. Sorry.

[rollplayinghouse]

No, it's fine. I'm not sure I really understand it either.

Communicating expectations in a way everyone was okay with was just... hard, with Joker and A, so...

[sancrimony]

I see. Communicating . . . Communicating at all is difficult . . .

But, that's probably the only way to do things right . . .

[rollplayinghouse]

...Yeah.

I mean... I'm trying to do that.

[sancrimony]

Who have you propositioned, anyway?

[ shifting, making himself comfortable on his stomach ]

[rollplayinghouse]

"Propositioned" is a bit... well, that might be accurate for King. Mars drew the line at no kissing. Other people... I had to tell Griffin I was interested in him after the house, but I knew he didn't think of me as a more than a friend to start with. I guess you could put Nine Nine in that category too, though sleeping with him would be a bad idea regardless, and that was a while ago...

[sancrimony]

[ idly drawing on the floor with his finger, as though tallying it up ]

Who else are you interested in?

[rollplayinghouse]

Those are all the main ones... I don't really keep it a secret if I'm interested and I think there's any chance of it working out.

[considers]

I guess I'm comfortable enough with Yugi or Man Eater that I wouldn't mind sleeping with them, but I'm not really into them, and that would just make things even more weird with King and Intensity. Primrose and I were interested in each other and going on dates for a little while, but we had a big fight about my live, and only recently talked it out, so I don't think I want to any more... it would always have been awkward with Joker and everyone, anyway. I thought Kohime was a bit attractive, but we barely know each other, and we have Sabre now, so that would be weird too...

[sancrimony]

. . .

Griffin-san and Nine-san seem to be the best options then, but . . .

[ . . . ]

Griffin-san is - how should I say it -

He seems like a pure person, so I wonder if this would be difficult for him.

[rollplayinghouse]

I know. I've actually talked to him about relationships and romance and that kind of a thing a lot, because we have similar perspectives... or, he's a lot like I was when I first got here. I knew it wouldn't be his kind of thing, which is why I wasn't going to tell him I liked him like that.

But, I stole his first kiss, in the house, while I was possessed. He was pretty upset about it, so I had to at least explain.

He ended up with a couple of girlfriends right after, so I think he's doing okay, but... probably he's still not interested.

[sancrimony]

. . . I see . . .

And, Nine-san has Anubis-san, so that would be a hurdle in and of itself, I would think . . .