ヲタノン (imeeji anon account) ([personal profile] wotanon) wrote2021-02-20 08:25 am
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This Time Even Dreamier (VIII)

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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 02:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ he tenses then -- and then there's a thought .. that's it? how poor of a temper this part of his heart must have, to be so enraged by such a minor thing. it's not as if he particularly enjoys being compared to him when he's in his right mind, but at the same time --

he's done far worse things than Somnus ever did, by a wide mile now. Ardyn exhales, heavily. ]

You need not apologise. My brother has been cruel, but I have been crueller at times. Far moreso than him. That aspect of me ... It is irrational, and it wronged you -- you know that, yes?

[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 02:42 am (UTC)(link)
[yeah maybe that part of you is fucked!!!!

Levity startles when there is no retribution coming - so convinced he was that he was going to be punished. He stares at Ardyn in incomprehension, but at least now fear in his eyes is replaced by confusion.]

B-But... I...

[He doesn't know what to think. With how much Levity has convinced himself, if only on a subconscious level, that it was all his own fault... It's now rather scary to face the possibility of the opposite.]

Ardyn, you... you were right to be angry with me, I shouldn't have intruded, I shouldn't have been so rude to you, I--

[He seems to be panicking again, though for nearly the opposite reason now. Levity buries his face in his hands, trying not to hyperventilate.]

...please. Please, what can I do to make it up to you, I don't want you to be angry with me, I don't--
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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ardyn makes a shhing sound, and he resists the urge to reach forward and pet, or try to hug Levity again. instead he just tries to cup the backs of his hands, to gently pull them away from his face. ]

It was not your choice to intrude. And you were quite right to be rude to that aspect myself.

May I ask something of you?

[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
[is this mercy kill offer pt 2

Levity still startles at the touch, but less so than before - out of surprise than fear this time. He looks up at Ardyn, tears in the corners of his eyes.]

Of... Of course. Anything...
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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 03:12 am (UTC)(link)
[ he gently guides Levity's hands away from himself, instead towards Ardyn's own neck -- where he tries to put them at either side of it, where if Levity squeezed he'd be holding his throat in turn. ]

You do not need to fear me.
weenwoon: (uh oh)

[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
[SIR???? This is a development Levity clearly didn't expect, and there's a different kind of worry on his face, even as he does let Ardyn guide his hands to his neck.]

Ardyn, I don't want to hurt you!

[His voice is fearful again, though not for himself this time... and yet, there is something about this reversal of power dynamics that--does make him feel better, in a way. The biggest challenge of recovery, after all, was reestablishing control - of his body, of his mind, of his life.]
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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
I am allowing it. I am asking it of you - - so you do not have to live with his specter over you for the remainder of your days here.

[ still - - Ardyn doesn't make him squeeze down. his hands remain there but it's more for support, to keep that contact up but to not force him into anything. if he's to do this it will be his choice. ]
weenwoon: haki is too powerful (unusually serious)

[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 04:34 am (UTC)(link)
[His eyes search Ardyn's face, trying to figure out what--what it is he wants, needs here.

...Eventually, he breathes out shakily, closes his eyes. His hands twitch around Ardyn's neck, but--]

...I can't. I can't hurt you, Ardyn... I simply... I simply wanted you to care for me. I did not want you to hate me. To be angry with me.
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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 04:45 am (UTC)(link)
[ he frowns - - and he does squeeze a bit with his fingers but it's not enough to force the grip. ]

I do not hate you. I want you to have this, Levity.
weenwoon: haki is too powerful (unusually serious)

[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
[LISTEN CAN YOU JUST MAKE IT CLEAR THIS IS HORNY KIND OF CHOKING, NOT MURDER CHOKING. HE WOULD BE SO MUCH MORE COMFORTABLE WITH THAT.]

...Why?
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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 04:55 am (UTC)(link)
[ look he doesn't know if Levity knows the difference?? ]

You will not hurt me. In fact - - in the right circumstances it can be rather enjoyable.

And you still have control.

[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
[What if you told him though!!!

But it seems that Levity at least has the inkling of an idea that, sometimes, choking can be horny. There's pink in his cheeks as he studies Ardyn's face, and. Oh. Well.

He squeezes down ever so slightly.]

...You never did answer me. When I asked if it's... if this... if being hurt feels good for you, too...
innerdaemons: (faces making noise)

[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
[ Absinthe's breath intakes some - - and there's a chuckle, but it's not mocking, more fond as he tips his head to bare more of his neck. ]

It does. So you never need to hold back for my sake.

[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
[...Oh. Ohhhhhhhhh oh he gets it now.

Levity certainly looks flustered by that, but also... curious? Since Absinthe seems to be participating willingly, Levity increases the pressure some more - but carefully, despite the reassurances. His face flushes more as he contemplates the... implications.]

...N-No, I don't want to go so far as to actually hurt you. But... If you like this...

[Maybe he can have little a breathplay. As a treat.]
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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 05:40 am (UTC)(link)
[ a little breathplay! as a treat!

Absinthe smiles and inhales slow, deep, as the pressure increases. it's still not really restricting his breathing but Levity can feel the way his pulse picks up under his hands. ]

I do. And I trust you with it, more than most.
weenwoon: theres like 80mb worth of these i cry haki how (shepherd to the stars)

[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
[Levity smiles--he can't help but be flattered, both at the fact that he can do something Ardyn likes but mostly the fact that he's trusted. That... goes a long way to making him feel better, really.]

...Thank you.

[Something else stirs at the back of his mind, a half-formed memory.]

I'm sorry if I made you feel like I did not trust you, Ardyn.
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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 06:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ he shakes his head, stroking the back of Levity's hand. ]

I understand entirely why you were uncertain with me, my friend. I am relieved you trust me enough to be comfortable doing this much.
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[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 07:05 am (UTC)(link)
[He flushes!!! It's nice to have Absinthe be genuinely charming again. Too bad this wouldn't really work in real life because there Levity's subconscious still freaks out at the sight of him.]

...To be honest... I was certain. But others kept telling me it would be naive or stupid, to trust so blindly.

[...]

And I think you would have been unhappy with that, too.
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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 07:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ he lets go of his hand, reaching up to touch the side of Levity's face but not moving the grip from his neck either. ]

It isn't terribly wise to trust blindly. One must be worthy of it.
weenwoon: haki tried to stop me from doing these (no need to fear)

[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 07:20 am (UTC)(link)
[It's ok garbageman he'll keep his hands on your neck! It's just that you're talking about things and actively choking you isn't conducive to that.

He tilts his head into the touch a little.]

...I thought that you are.
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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 07:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ can't believe talking about feelings interrupted sexy choking ]

And I can only hope to prove that that faith in me is not misplaced.
Edited 2021-02-21 07:32 (UTC)
weenwoon: i would have taken at least two days (doing his best not to smug)

[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 07:34 am (UTC)(link)
[can't you though!!! it's levity

But he smiles, a little flustered but happy, and... transfers his attention to the matter at hand, as it were.]

...It might be easier if you lie down this time.
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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
-- oh, yes, it would!

[ neatly, then, he'll try to grab Levity by his hips and help guide him so their positions can be reversed - - Levity on top of him, straddling him. ]
weenwoon: picking up from yesterday! (incurably smug)

[personal profile] weenwoon 2021-02-21 08:19 am (UTC)(link)
[He makes a noise of surprise, but--this is nice, actually? There's a change in the atmosphere of the dream - and Levity is still unaware it's not just a dream, but he's certainly a lot happier with it now. He chuckles as he makes himself more comfortable, just taking in the sight of Absinthe--Ardyn under him. This is new and different, but exciting in the same measure.]

...I never thought I would be doing something like this.
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[personal profile] innerdaemons 2021-02-21 08:40 am (UTC)(link)
[ he gets comfortable himself , a low chuckle escaping, the vibrations noticeable against Levity's hands as he shifts under him. ]

No - - you do not seem the sort to anticipate such a thing. I am honored to give you your first experience in this position!

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